one way conversation

Yes you can see I'm surrounded by a million people but there's one YOU that I'm calling out for. See, this obsession is growing rapidly. I couldn't live a day without talking to you. I suck at missing you minute by minute. I can't think of better ways to not think of you. And what I hate the most is that you're too good at forgetting my existence. You have a life on your own which I don't posses. You enjoy your moments with or WITHOUT me. I hate this. I fucking hate this. I hate myself for loving you this much when all I usually get is a little piece of your attention and love. I want it all. I want it all so badly. Call me selfish but this is really what it is. This is really how I feel. This is something we can't run away from. Change is something I can't do for reasons that I don't FUCKIN' KNOW! I couldn't always hold on to your words and promises 'cause it usually does not show its truth. And I hate this I hate this I hate this! Christ help!